Science Fair Project Gone Wrong

i never really thought about breastfeeding before becoming a mom. i knew i wanted to do it, but that was about as far i went.

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when Stone was born, and the nurse put him on my chest, i watched him root around for seconds before finding his food. i was in complete amazement. that first nurse was so sweet & showed me how i would know he was actually eating his food by pointing out the movement of his jaw. i was amazed. this was easy! however, when i switched floors in the hospital & went to my recovery room – my experience wasn’t as pleasant.

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in fact, it was a complete nightmare. Stone wanted to eat what felt like every hour. i couldn’t be bothered with the stupid gown, so naked I was. nurses were in and out of my room every five minutes checking my blood pressure (due to labor complications) and my boobs were constantly out. as if labor hadn’t already humbled me . . .

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i couldn’t find a good position for Stone to nurse and i was exhausted. At one point, the 17th nurse came in while i was watching keeping up with the kardashians, and she said she hated kim. and i was like cool, but what about helping me breastfeed my child? (i was hormonal and tired, sorry!) She positioned me 7 different ways and then called in reinforcements. I was a science fair project gone terribly wrong. They huddled together and popped up with an idea! Let’s have her (me) lie down, and turn her (me) on her (my) side. so i did. and although i was deathly afraid at first – because Stone could easily roll off the narrow hospital bed, we figured it out. And for the next day or two, when Stone was hungry, it was a whole endeavor to lay down, get him positioned, get 12 pillows to create a barrier, and nurse that little baby. But we did it. I did it. I felt like superwoman.

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it’s day one of world breastfeeding week! this is just the beginning of my story. let’s celebrate all mamas who feed their babies! no matter what, fed is best (boob or bottle!) xox